I have been meaning to write this post forever!!
Last month I was at my BF’s house and was writing a post. Now you have to understand that for as long as I have been blogging up to that point I had never bothered to let him know I was blogging about finances. It’s very likely that he already knew, he’s most defiantly NOT a stupid man and I confess I didn’t work hard to hid it (I never cleared my mac’s history). Any ways he asked to use it while I was doing something else which of course I let him. Be fore I handed it over to him I cleared all the pages I had open so that he couldn’t see what I was working on (writing a post). A little while later I sat down and looked over at what he was working on. One of the internet tabs he had open was my blog. I asked him what that tab was and he casually replied ‘oh just something you must have had open’ Ok I know I closed everything, which means he didn’t want me to know that he was reading my blog secretly. It was time to come clean.
My heart was razing honestly I was like confessing I had broken the window to my parents. So I said well do you know what it is, he said not really. I confessed “BF love, that’s my blog for the last year I have been blogging about my finances.” “Oh he said, you didn’t mention it sooner.” I confessed to him that I was worried about telling him. He said “why I already know everything anyways.” He’s right he does, I haven’t hid anything from him. Student debt has defined a large aspect of our relationship early on.
One of the reasons that I didn’t post much in November and early December I realized was because of this issue. I wasn’t 100% sure how comfortable I was with him having free access to the blog and with the possibility of having to censoring the things I blog about. I think I am over it now and I feel much more at ease with things.
Actually I think one of the things that helped me was the talk we had this pass visit. My BF told me how vulnerable he felt within our relationship. You see I know a lot about him, more so than anyone else. He told me that if I ever betrayed his trust he would have a very hard time not just trusting but opening up again to someone else in a relationship or in general. I am in the same place as he is there are many things that I have opened up to him about that I haven’t to anyone else about.
Now that I have ‘outed’ myself to the only person that it truly matter, for me to, I fell I can get back on the blogging bag wagon and make 2012 more successful for my blogging career what ever that means.
Last month I was at my BF’s house and was writing a post. Now you have to understand that for as long as I have been blogging up to that point I had never bothered to let him know I was blogging about finances. It’s very likely that he already knew, he’s most defiantly NOT a stupid man and I confess I didn’t work hard to hid it (I never cleared my mac’s history). Any ways he asked to use it while I was doing something else which of course I let him. Be fore I handed it over to him I cleared all the pages I had open so that he couldn’t see what I was working on (writing a post). A little while later I sat down and looked over at what he was working on. One of the internet tabs he had open was my blog. I asked him what that tab was and he casually replied ‘oh just something you must have had open’ Ok I know I closed everything, which means he didn’t want me to know that he was reading my blog secretly. It was time to come clean.
My heart was razing honestly I was like confessing I had broken the window to my parents. So I said well do you know what it is, he said not really. I confessed “BF love, that’s my blog for the last year I have been blogging about my finances.” “Oh he said, you didn’t mention it sooner.” I confessed to him that I was worried about telling him. He said “why I already know everything anyways.” He’s right he does, I haven’t hid anything from him. Student debt has defined a large aspect of our relationship early on.
One of the reasons that I didn’t post much in November and early December I realized was because of this issue. I wasn’t 100% sure how comfortable I was with him having free access to the blog and with the possibility of having to censoring the things I blog about. I think I am over it now and I feel much more at ease with things.
Actually I think one of the things that helped me was the talk we had this pass visit. My BF told me how vulnerable he felt within our relationship. You see I know a lot about him, more so than anyone else. He told me that if I ever betrayed his trust he would have a very hard time not just trusting but opening up again to someone else in a relationship or in general. I am in the same place as he is there are many things that I have opened up to him about that I haven’t to anyone else about.
Now that I have ‘outed’ myself to the only person that it truly matter, for me to, I fell I can get back on the blogging bag wagon and make 2012 more successful for my blogging career what ever that means.
